Life hasn't been nice to me this week. In fact, the other day I walked out the door and told David that I hated my life. "What in the world is wrong with you Jennifer? " that was me questioning myself as I drove down the highway headed for work.
"I hate the drive." "I hate that I have to work, why can't I just be a stay at home mom?" "Why can't I just stay home and sew and bake and homeschool the kids?"
That was me. I sounded like a 2 year old who was told they couldn't have candy before supper.
I made myself sick that I had an anxiety attack and had to come back home.
Do you ever have those, "Why me?" "Why can't my life be perfect kind of days?" "Weeks?"
Mine turned into a whole week. A a whole week of not reading my Bible.
A whole week of feeling sorry for myself and hating my life.
I just gave the devil a great time by the way I behaved. And all along, God kept reminding me that he loved me. He kept telling me that Life isn't fair, but that he would never leave me. He kept trying to point out the good things in my life.
Thing is I just kept distancing away from him even more.
It wasn't until Friday that I took my 18 year old to get his ID. We talked on our way there and back and as always he asks me where I'm working and if I like it. I'm always eager to tell him, but this time I was so upset with the world that I didn't want to talk about it. As we continued to talk, he told me that he was so thankful for his new part-time job. He went on to tell me that most of the new people who were hired, only a few would be able to work full-time. He goes, "Mom, those people make $10.00 an hour and most of them have to get second jobs." He told me about the work, about washing dishes and being a server. I realized that God has always provided me the with best jobs. I just fail to see the blessings. I'm here upset about driving an hour to my job where some people not only have to drive far, but work so hard that one job isn't enough.
I learned a very important lesson that day. And it wasn't some self-help book, it was my very wise 18 year old. "Mom, he says, Take the job. Anyone else would want an easy job like that. Just take it."
And so I did.
As I ran later on that day, I met a turtle who was struggling to find his home. I noticed an algae patch on his shell, so I figured he needed water. I found a nearby area with water that I placed him down in the water and he just shooted off into the water. I could only imagine how happy he was. I ran an extra mile to get this little fella into the water.
I think it would have taken an eternity for the turtle to walk a mile. And it would have been difficult walking through the Costco parking lot trying to get into the water. This when God taught me a very important lesson about helping out others. Not only by being a Nurse, but by helping my children become independent, especially my 18 year old.
That day when I placed the turtle into the water, I told God I would stop complaining.
Everything's gonna be alright.
Until Next Time,
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Jennifer
