Bumblebee

I don't know if I have the energy to cry anymore. My coughing woke me up at 4 a.m., which then I spent an hour in the bathroom hacking up a lung. As a nurse and a mom of a 1 year old, the going never stops. I go until the pedal gets stuck and then I am forced to stop.  Moments like this make me thank God hundreds and hundreds of times for my life. So, as I forced myself to get up out of bed and find some normal routine, I turned on the children's station where Hazel and I listen to songs and sing along to classics such as "Monkeys on the Bed", "De Colores", and "Five Little Ducks."  One song came on and tears just started streaming down my already puffy, sick face.

Bumblebee
The lyrics as follows, 

I'm bringing home a baby bumblebee,
Won't my mommy be so proud of me,
I'm bringing home a baby bumblebee,
Ouch! It stung me!

I'm squishing up the baby bumblebee,
Won't my mommy be so proud of me,
I'm squishing up a baby bumblebee,
Ooh! It's yucky!

I'm wiping off the baby bumblebee,
Won't my mommy be so proud of me,
I'm wiping off the baby bumblebee,
Now my mommy won't be mad at me!

I pictured that cute little boy coming home from school showing me the motions of the song and having the biggest smile on his face. Tears began to flow as I remembered how small my first born son, Dave was. Small but he already owned a big smile. Zach always says that he always brightens up the room. David says the same. He brings life to every party. We need a day or two to prepare for his entrance and two days later we are filled with joy with all the excitement he brings to us. For his 21st birthday we had the pleasure to celebrate it with him and his girlfriend, Kat. There was plenty of food for us at Snooze and later on we enjoyed homemade fried chicken with all the fixings that I prepared.  On Thanksgiving day, he brought me a cup, but not just any old regular cup. It had the words Navy on it. He had prepared me the day before with his excitement on how he was officially going into the Navy. At that time I was still in shock. To be honest, I did not know what to say. He went on to tell me how he scored really high on his test and it placed him in a really good position: Aviation and Electronics, Electrical and Computer Systems Technician. I went on to tell him how I knew that I was going to be a Nurse because I also scored high on my exam. Something I knew nothing of.  

No one in my family was a nurse.

No one in our family has ever served in the military. 

My boy made a very wise decision. I am beyond proud of him. He told me that he didn't just want to spend the next years of his life being a server. He wanted so much more. And so much more is what he will find. He will find wisdom in the new places he visits, joy as well as pain, and He will find that this little boy who used to sing the Bumblebee song to me with so much joy will find much more joy in the world that he will pave for himself.

I love you with all my heart boy. 

Look at that face!!!

DJ and Kat

Until Next Time, 

Eat Organic, 

Eat Gluten-Free, 

Jennifer