Come what may, I want to run.: Adios 2016, Bienvenidos 2017

2016
Zachary advances to 3rd degree Black Belt

Lately things in my life have made no sense to me. Lately things that have been happening around me have left with questioning my creator. It's left me with a sense of disconnection from this world. A bit of it can be soothed with a tune or two, but lately my soul needs rest. And rest it has done. For the past 3 days I've suffered from a sinus infection that left me questioning my sanity. Like who in the world lies in bed for 2 days and wishes to be dead when one alone is just suffering from such an infection. I told David it was the flu, but he suspected it wasn't something that drastic. Today, day 4, its' New Year's Eve and I got out of my pajamas and got dressed. Nothing fancy, just a nice top and tights. I want to bring in the New Year with a positive outlook.

I forgave myself in 2016

A positive outlook on my job. A positive outlook on my journey from postpartum depression. A positive outlook on raising the kids and a new baby. A positive outlook on my sewing. A positive outlook on helping others. A positive outlook on Myself: this has been one of my biggest struggles as I have battled with a negative self image and my postpartum depression.

Things that have happened to me this past year have made no sense to me. I see them as just trails that we all go through in life. Sometimes things just happen because, well, "That's Life." Everything doesn't have to have a reason. Some things just happen because we have no control over the way people behave or act. We can just control the things we say or do.

This journey in 2016 has made me love myself more than ever. It's helped me to accept the things I can not change. It's made me Love More Deeply and it made me realize how full of shit some people are. Pardon my french. I've also learned the meaning of being patient. Especially when it comes to buying a house. It's made me love my in laws more than I have ever loved them and it's made me very thankful for my husband who has never left my side.

This year I have given more of myself, my time and my money to others.

Here's to another year. It's a bit scary, I know. One day at time people. That's how I see it.