Come what may, I want to run.: Overwhelmed by You

4:30 a.m. Cancelled. No other work. Go back to sleep and try to get at least another hour. Maybe I should go and run. Nope. I'm too tired. I go back to sleep and think about what our homeschool day will be like today since I will be home. You see, the kids look forward to me working. They like it when they can look in their binders, pull out their daily schedule and start marking out all the tasks they have to do. They love to work independently. Seven years in the making, these kids know what is required of them.
I decide to wake up at 7 a.m. I'm going to start my day. I quietly slip into my comfortable spot on the couch and decide to look at Facebook/Emails. What more could I do? The kids are still sleeping. David suggests I go for a run. Nope I say, I'm going to sit here depressed about work. Nope, David makes me go.
I head to the trial. I'm done after 3 miles. I'm exhausted. Exhausted from thinking. Exhausted that we argued with our teenager yesterday.Exhausted that I don't have work. Exhausted because I'm depressed.

EXHAUSTED!!!!

Do you ever feel that you too are exhausted with just being?

What about not knowing what tomorrow brings and knowing that you just have to trust that it will be a good day?

I often think of tomorrow, but Jesus often told us not to worry about tomorrow.

Do Not Worry

Luke 12:22-24

22 Then Jesus said to his disciples: “Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat; or about your body, what you will wear. 23 For life is more than food, and the body more than clothes. 24 Consider the ravens: They do not sow or reap, they have no storeroom or barn; yet God feeds them. And how much more valuable you are than birds!25 Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to your life[a]? 26 Since you cannot do this very little thing, why do you worry about the rest?

27 “Consider how the wild flowers grow. They do not labor or spin. Yet I tell you, not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. 28 If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today, and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, how much more will he clothe you—you of little faith! 29 And do not set your heart on what you will eat or drink; do not worry about it. 30 For the pagan world runs after all such things, and your Father knows that you need them. 31 But seek his kingdom, and these things will be given to you as well.

You see, I have no control over what the day will bring. Yes, I can plan, I can decide when/where to work and what to do with my day, but we need to trust that God has everything planned out. As for work, I do have work. As for food, my fridge isn't empty. As for my teenager, I'm learning. As for being depressed, I have the maker of the universe looking down on me and giving me all his Love.

At this moment, I am overwhelmed by God's Love for me. I love this song. Please listen.

Look at the children. How happy they are with so little.